Boundary situations

"...The consciousness of self is thus very far from a knowledge of self in which I do not use the categories, whereby I cogitate an object,by means of the conjuction of the manifold in one apperception."/I.Kant,CPReason/
"A knowledge of self" - How look like our knowledge of self?Does it exist only on the level of phenomenon/as all our possible knowledge is in Kantian doctrine/?But, the true self-knowledge must overcomes the phenomena for encompassing the whole being,thus and our noumenon,noumenal side of our being.Is it possible for us as humans?Does it happens only in the "limit situation"/great danger,big fear or,for example,mystical experience/?These moments may be very painful although very important for our future.The old mechanisms of our thought and reaction/which we kept so firmly under the control/suddenly stop functioning and we become helpless.Such an experience determine whole our life and personality.
/If anybody thinks that in my post are many stupidities,OK.,but I experience some of above situations/.
"The deeper meaning of these boundary situations lies in the realization that they propel us beyond the horizons that govern our life within the spheres of immanent actuality.Writing in his Philosophy of 1932,Jaspers describes the inner logic of boundary or limit situations.The image of the leap serves to elucidate the move from bare existence toward Existenz:
'In limit situations,each form of the leap leads me out of existence to Existenz - to Existenz as a germ enclosed in the seed,to Exitenz as elucidating itself as possibility,to Existenz as actual.After the leap,my life is something other to me than my being in the sense of merely existing.When I now say"I am",this statement has a new meaning'/"Karl Jaspers"Richard Wisser,L.H.Ehrlich - essay by R.S.Corrington p.83/